It started when I was fourth grade. Misophonia. Basically it’s like when certain noises or sounds (usually like someone’s bodily sounds) trigger some emotional or physiological like reaction in me, which doesn't really make sense, I know. Like let's say I hear and see someone like shaking their leg or tapping their thumb or sniffling, or like flicking something, or anything like that. My brain goes into panic mode - like it really freaks out and my first instinct is to like either run away or like, like just freak out. It’s called flight or fight response. It can make me feel crazy and like it’s hard to explain. It’s very disruptive in your life. I’ve been trying to figure out like how to handle it and it took so many people so long to figure it out and no one knew what it was. One therapist explained it to me as like let's say you're in like a forest alone and you're in the dark and you hear what sounds like something rustling in the bush, so your brain goes into panic mode because it thinks you're in danger. That’s literally what happens. So whenever I hear someone like sniffling or chewing for example, my brain processes it as a trigger for danger and I react that way - like I get angry or stressed and hyper-like. It was really bad in middle school and I cried every day so I wouldn't have to go to school. I basically just hid myself in my room, so I didn't have to hear the noises or anticipate them. I felt like my room was the only safe spot. Now I'm like really good - like I control it very well so I don't even have it anymore. I found a few people who actually had Misophonia too so that helped me to not feel crazy. Most people don’t get it. Whenever I tell people what I’m going through they’re like “What are you talking about - just get over it” and I'm like .. it doesn't work that way. And it sounds so weird when I explain it, and I don't know how to explain it because it’s very strange. You can look it up. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

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